Fear

Fear is a funny thing. It makes you feel jumpy, excited, hopeful, scared, stressed, etc. It is one of those emotions that is created by a bunch of other feelings mixed together. I suppose that I why it could be so hard to handle and face. For me, it seems that I do have a lot of fears…which I do not really like admitting. But hey, I am human. After all, aren’t we all? So, here goes.

1) Failure: This doesn't seem so bad at first, and it probably isn’t a at the top of the list for others, but this is a big one for me. I do not know why I can never exactly fail. I just hate the thought of it, and it scares me. It makes me have a low self-esteem, and I feel not as strong. I also am afraid my future will get dampened if I do not do well. It makes me mad because I spend so much time worrying about if I will do a good job in school, while other people go out and meet with their friends and have fun. Ah, this one just makes me stressed thinking about it so I am moving on.

2) Escalators: This fear might sound silly to some people, but these things actually scare the heck out of me. I am always afraid that I will trip trying to get on and I will fall down the stairs and die! Just the thought freaks me out a little! Or sometimes I start to freak out and wonder if my foot will get stuck. Ah! They are so scary! I also hate the germ-covered hand rails because you never want to touch them but then what do you hang on to? You are then stuck in that position once more about thinking of death! My advice, grab onto the person next to you and hang on for dear life! They are so crowded too, and you cannot step too close the the person in front of you or talk too loud or else they will look back at you like, “Who the heck is this freak.” So I always try to stay off them.

3) Ticks: I have never met a person who actually “likes” ticks, but they do not seem to be on people’s fear lists that often. Just the name of the insect scares me! Just think, a little bug digging into your skin for blood…ewww! Not okay! Just go drink some fruit juice buddy!

4) Dieing young: Who wants to though? It scares me to think about it. What if I do not achieve my dreams? What if I do not have enough time to do and be who I want to be. What if I do not get to accomplish all I want to accomplish? Aren’t these big questions?!? Death does not seem that bad, but dying before you are ready seems worse. But then again, who is “ready” to actually die?

And the list goes on…